When I went to pick up Violet from school on Wednesday I noticed that they had put up the Tanabata decorations in the hall. The kids all get to write down a wish and tie it to a branch. Last year Violet wrote down that she wished for a baby. So I asked her, "Did you get to write down your wish yet?" She looked up and said "Yes, I did!". "What did you wish for baby?" I asked. "I wished to take away your sadness." she said. "My sadness? Do you think mama is sad?" I asked. "Yes, I wished to take away your sadness because when you are sad I want to take you my love." she said. I had already stopped and was squatting down at her eye level, at that point though, I feel onto my knees and pulled her to my chest as closely as I could. I felt on the verge of tears. I looked into her eyes and I said, "Violet you are so kind and so thoughtful. I love you so very much!" She hugged me back and said, "Mama, I just love you!"
Oh this girl melts my heart! I wish that she never had to see me sad and that I could be the picture of happiness all the time around her but I know that wouldn't be healthy either. She needs to know that all emotions are normal and that we are all allowed to feel them. I just pray that she never feels the responsibility to make me or anyone else feel happy if they are sad or angry. Because that is a losing battle.
I love you, Violet!
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